Grant and Maria celebrated their 2nd birthday last week. We spent the afternoon at the zoo and they were very excited about their new steer and stroll tricycles. Their feet don’t touch the pedals yet, but they think being pushed is super fun. All in all, we had a great time celebrating, however, I find their birthday a bitter sweet time. I think it’s because of just how fast the time goes and that much of their first year and even the second is somewhat of a blur. Their birthday brings me to a point of reflection over our entire journey through infertility, embryo adoption and God’s plans.
At church this past weekend, we studied the Book of Ruth and how the story of Ruth, an ordinary girl, is instrumental in the overarching story of God’s much bigger plan. Ruth was the mother of Obed who was the grandfather of David, from whom Jesus is a descendent. While Ruth, and her mother-in-law Naomi, could have never imagined the turns their life took together, when looking at the story as a whole, one can see how it was a part of a much bigger plan. At times, Naomi was very bitter at her lot in life – losing her husband and two sons in a foreign land – but it all came together for the good of God.
I look at our journey much the same. There were times when I was bitter and angry and just couldn’t understand why we couldn’t conceive – why would God do this to us? Now that we’re on the other side, I realize that the package that said “infertility” on the outside, had Grant and Maria through the gift of embryo adoption on the inside. 5 years ago, I never would have said that infertility was a good thing, but now that I’m on the “other side” I see it that it was a part of a plan that was way bigger than mine.